I am in serious panic about my job.

I don't really have a reason for it.

Its draining. Hugely draining.

And, then, as always, there's personal crap.

My back is so tense hunched is starting to be my natural posture.

And no air conditioning in hot weather, and hydro bills where the delivery charge is ten bucks more than the usage, not to mention water heater bills wher emy usage charge is suddenly unmetered, and the incredible cost to fight off a huge house fly infestation{okay,two weeks about 200 flies so maybe not huge, but kinda huge} (3 cans of Black Flag, plus packing tape to seal all the gaps in the kitchen window and window frame, plus bleachx2 to scrub the entire place down (four times), plus two weeks of not eating at home, plus a home that now smells permenantly of Black Flag with undertones of bleach plus whatever running my fan full time for two weeks is going to cost)

And underlying fear and paranoia.